State of the Life Address

I'm beginning to emerge from the green pleghmy fog cloud that's enveloped me since Thursday evening.  Vegging out for upwards of 72 hours and surviving solely on finger foods has not only afforded me some serious Zen, the downtime also provided some much-needed introspection.  Somewhere between a riveting Lifetime Movie and an episode of HGTV's Design on a Dime, a revelation came through to my throbbing head:  nothingness is great for the soul.  I am really content where I'm at.  I don't just mean these past few days of relaxation, but my state of being as a whole.  My life is calmer now than ever before.  This is the first time in a long time that I haven't been adapting to change, pulling my hair out with change and jumping up and down with change.

Since meeting Chris six years ago (I know, crazy, right?), I've experienced at least one major transition every year.  In 2004, I graduated college, moved to Pittsburgh, switched jobs and applied to grad school.  2005 found me enrolled full-time at Pitt, working two jobs and doing a field placement.  The on-again, off-again overachiever in me managed to complete all my coursework in one year and graduate that same year, which makes my resume look rather questionable:  Master of Library and Information Science, 2005-2005.  In 2006, I worked as a temp, worked as a waitress, then finally hit the jackpot when I found a 'big girl' job as a full-time librarian.  I had to buy a whole new wardrobe and morph into a morning person.  Yeah, big shock to the system.  In 2006, I also got engaged, which means that the next year--2007--I planned a wedding and got married.  Chris also finished up grad school and got an MA in 2007.  In 2008, Chris got a promotion at his job and began traveling out of town a lot, which was a jolt to us newlyweds.  In 2008, we also vacated our long-time apartment and settled into the goat loft.  We went from the hum-drum suburbs to a buzzing city neighborhood--and our new lifestyle did too.  2009 was my turn to move on up; I got a promotion at my job, becoming the youngest library director in the county.

Did that make you dizzy just reading that? Sure did for me...or maybe that's just my meds.

I am crossing my fingers that the remainder of this year and 2010 don't require any major adjustments.  This might be the first time I've ever desired status quo.  I'm usually in that "what's next?" state of mind, constantly evolving, constantly reaching out for that next big goal.  I need a break, though.  I don't want to set any world records, I don't want to move to Paris, I don't want to save all the kittens and I certainly don't want to stretch out my uterus.

All I wanna do is spoon with my husband and travel to fun places and eat Rice Krispie treats and love my family and challenge my creativity.  What's so wrong with that?